why travel?

different places.
different tastes.
different perspectives.
different conversations.
and they all lead to new thoughts. what a rush....

my 7 year old niece wrote in her diary: there are a lot of places
to see in this world, but lots of people dont go.
I didn't sneak a peek. she told me :)

life is like catching a fruit fly in mid air.
you track its movement, predict where it will be in the next split second, and strike. the average success rate is not very high. the sucker's can change direction pretty quickly.

would have been much easier if it was like catching a cow. u could walk up to it. look it in the eye for a while, take a nap and then give it a biiiiig hug.
but how boring is that?!?!!!

in general the art of confiding in elders is lost on us living within a western society...

lot to be said about moshaaverat.

I wonder how would I go? the big go.

in my sleep? not aware.
freeze? burn? with initial extreme pain and then numbness.
in a shark attack? fighting for my life.
in bed? chocking on a piece of chicken wing feeling so freaking stupid.

hopefuly plenty of time til then :) til then get busy living, or get busy dying (shawshank redemption).

ajab!!!!

what's with my car problems?

last night my car got towed and I had to chase down
the tow truck and cough up $110 for him to release
the car. quickest $110 bucks I ever spent (actualy thats
not true, there was that one time in vegas). the posted
signs were 8X11 and size 8 fonts (maybe they were a little
bigger?!) man. just cant be honest today!!

mind as well: I'm 6'1''. handsome. funny. warm. Intelligent.
caring. athletic. educated. sociable. and I love animals and
children. if u want death, go to ghiaas aabaad.

how much is enough?

my observation for the day

if you'r genuine unconditional interest in someone is slightly
more than their interest in u and u dont do a good job of
handling yourself, the relationship is pretty much doomed.

my 2 cents: this touches on one of our basic traits of taking
things for granted. it seems a natural reaction to be
pushed away or repelled by anything or anyone that
show's genuine, unconditional attention to us. Somehow it
doesn't seem as valuable as if there was a string attached.
It feels free and anything free is never appreciated. take time
for example. or the sunset. air. not water anymore. we pay for it
now.

speaking of free things.

http://story.news.yahoo.com/news?tmpl=story&u=/space/20030812/sc_space/magicalnightskyweekmarsfullmoonandshootingstars

Let me not just present questions. I think the remedy is
constantly being concious of this pattern if u'r on the receiving
end and self control on the giving end. I didn't say it would be easy.

no feedback yet so this is the absolute truth as we know it now.

actualy this factors in to the previous blob about who is
worthy of love. If someone is worthy and therefore capable of
true "love", defined by its ultimate definition, their love will be
completely unconditional and naturaly would hit this bug in the
human behavior. So they never feel happy or be happy by
the love they are so worthy of!!! how sad!!!

I'm going soft. I better start writing some manly man stuff. akh tof.

"Those who are most worthy of love are never made
happy by it"

Yesterday as I was driving along I understood this to its full but
now I somehow lost touch with its deeper meaning. Something
about realization, action, response and timing but not necessarily
in that order or neccesarily inclusive.

in case u'r curious that was a line from the film Dangerous
Liasons(sp?) from back in 90's.

I made a person cry today. a stranger. dont know
if she deserved it but I couldn't help it. I'm not
a mean spirited person. It takes a lot of offend
me and even more to impress me.
I was already in a shity mood, she gave me a ticket
for parking and she wouldn't listen to my reasoning
and I lost it. I went off on her and said everything that
could possibly be wrong with her life and during that
span of 4 minutes hit a nurve.
wasn't worth it. I apologize to anyone who's been on
the receiving side, and that includes me.

in continuation to my request for input regarding the self fullfilifliifng
prophecy:
I haven't figured out how to work out the feedback feature
so just close your eyes and I'll try to read u'r thoughts.

yeah, I hear u. the rave scene was pretty good. but can u tell
me what u think of my problem?

no, I dont think keanu reeves is a robot. good for the part though.
what of my problem? any input?

mmm, finaly a suggestion. I'll take that into consideration.

how would I go about not fullfiling a self fullfiling prophecy?

let me clarify. a friend is involved with another person which I
know is no good for her. now, how would I tell her that without
planting a seed in her head that might very well feed the same
notion of her "possible" failed relationship that I'm trying to
protect her from?

I know, they covered this in the matrix but I can't wait til the last
part for the answer, assuming they would have an answer.

my first blog.

must it be impressive? the truth?

I'll start with praising the tiny electrons working
their way through miles of wires connecting your
eyes to my words.